Binge/purge free - 3 days
Fist week binge/purge free of 2013 - 11 - 18th April
Trying to:
be healthier
be fitter
be stronger
avoid binge eating
avoid purging
be happy
Suuuuuper bloated. Just had 2 slices of wholemeal bread so its probably that. Going to try to cut down on the bread for the following week to see if it helps
An apple, vanilla low-fat yoghurt and some muesli with dried fruit
Woke up early to workout and I did but it wasn’t good and I’m so disappointed. My internet was being so slow and kept having to buffer the video so it was a lot of starting and stopping. I’m annoyed so I’m making myself some baked oatmeal.
Meal prep! Chicken, tomato and bean stew :)
Thought I was doing well today but I just had a horrid binge/purge session
I’ve also realised how difficult it will be to stay healthy this week as it’s the last week of school for me so cake and cake and cake.
We’re going out on Thursday specifically for ice cream so I’m pretty much screwed then anyway.
I think it’s because I had quite a large portion at dinner and I didn’t make it/see how it was made. I know it wasn’t made with health in mind but it also wasn’t a terribly “bad” meal. Part of me is proud because I portioned more veg and less carbs and didn’t purge it. Part of me knows I could have gotten away with having a smaller portion on my plate. I also ate supper pretty much straight after even though I was quite full which annoys me because it was similar (but not too much so) to my more disordered binge/purge eating. I didn’t feel like it was a binge though, it just reflected it in some ways. It’s not like it was unhealthy food (except maybe the dinner preparation was more unhealthy than I would have liked), its just that I was less in control than I have been this past week. I feel better writing that down.
Tomorrow we’re going to a food/garden market so hopefully I’ll buy lots of nice organic stuff and everything will be okay.
Lets add a blueberry muffin and some almond milk to today’s intake :)
